Hi! Long time no see....right?

I try very hard to be a good person. I try to be a good mother, a good wife, a good friend, and a good employee. I don't expect that I'm even remotely close to being "good" at any of those, but I do try very hard. We'll take work, for example. I don't call in unless it's ABSOLUTELY necessary. This translates to, I haven't missed a day of work due to call in in almost a year. I work very hard, and I try my very best to lead by example. Recently I was asked to train a team, something I've never done before, and it was kind of a last minute deal. No big...I'll take that challenge. I worked very hard to teach my class to the very best of my abilities. I feel very proud, too, because I saw light bulbs go off and the look of dawning comprehension took place. That really made my whole day. When one of my, we'll call them students for lack of a better word, tells me, "That is the first time this has made sense" and follows it up with a good teacher comment...it makes it worth it! Right? So, now we're getting to the root of the issue. I was in a training of my own last week, in which I was being trained. I was so disappointed in this training. After being in that situation, and working my tail off, it really irritated me how some people can take a totally lax attitude towards it.

Every time I asked a question, an eye was rolled or I'd get a "Because I said so" answer. Well, I've got news for you, "Because I said so" surely doesn't fly with me. Once, when I was about 8-ish, I asked my mom why and how Vacuums suck. "It just does" was the response. Sorry, but I'm very inquisitive, so guess what my little 8-ish year old self did? Yep...I took it apart. I never thought my mom would stop screaming at me for that one. Needless to say, I also put it back together. I may not have discovered the full "why" and "how" of the workings of a vacuum cleaner, but I can take one apart, fix it, and put it back together, to this very day. (Don't believe me? Ask my mom.)

So, as you can tell, when I got the "it-is-what-it-is" attitude, I had to keep pushing back for more information. Now tell me this....why train but not tell the "why" of it? I guess even at 32, I'm an inquisitive 5 year old at heart. It just disappoints me that I'm trying to learn something that you're teaching, and you're annoyed at me asking for more information.

The training is now done, and I feel a bit more comfortable with the issues...after pushing, some answers were given. I take comfort in the fact that somehow...I helped by asking those questions, and demanding those answers. We'll see...right?